Phobia

A short update in between the time while ii'm doing my assignment...

Mum brought me to BoonKeng for me to meet my friend for assignment.

While on our way there,

mum drived passed somewhere

which made me recalled back the incident falls on 1st March this year.

My heart starts beating rapidly that ii can feel it's missed skips somehow.

That ii could hardly breathe and it (heart) sank.

Looking at where ii am, thinking back...

trying to recall hard for what had actually happened that day.

ii hesitated...

I am afraid.

ii wanted to shout out everything that ii could!

Yet ii'm struggling somehow...

ii knew it will definitely worry my mum out if ii mention it again.

&& again,

ii've chose to shut myself, smiling away...

If ii would to choose,

ii would really wants to erase off the incident for now & forever.

The question that ii've been always asking:

"Have ii ever stepped out of that incident??"

ii hope so ...

This is really a phobia for me ...