2010 is ending soon.
Here comes the Christmas again.
What do you wish to get/have in this coming Christmas??
As for me,
ii just wish to have a better brain, a better life, a better family & a better in my relationship.
After evening, ii've been very emotion.
ii feel very stupid, very dumb or ii have no IQ/EQ at all.
ii'm twenties but why am ii still so naive?
Always, ii believe everyone was born to be a worthy & useful & a smart person.
but what am ii??
ii'm a failure.
ii've joined jappy lesson twice, but ii quit half way.
ii've took my driving lesson since ii was eighteen, but ii was twenty now.
ii can't get into 'O's with my cliques, ended ii have to waste a bomb to privates.
now, graduate from advance diploma.
but what have ii seriously learned so far??
my relationship, seriously ii always wanted a happiness ending like how fairytales always end up to be. But it doesn't seem it will end like one.
ii admit that ii've made a freaking mistake that ii shouldn't be.
everything went well after that. ii knew the reason why you're doing this.
but is this really what you want?? ii don wish/dare to mention anything at all.
cause, ii'm really afraid that ii might lose you!
' I've got to apologize to you once again. I'm really sorry for what I've done! I knew you've forgive me. But, have you really? I'm scared, insecure at the same time. you're really nice to me even though that ... I'm sorry & I you ♥ truly!'
my family,
I always wanted to have a very very normal family.
like whenever there someone at home, dinner together, WE watching tv dramas together, etc.
However I knew that it'll never happen.
Either this situation will happen, etc, going out for dinner together, strolling after dinner, shopping together. How pathetic I would say.
So this year Christmas, people asking me 'what do you want for this Christmas?'
I would say:
- Me, GROWING!
- Resuscitation; Start to understand things properly.
- To persevere & not being stubborn!
- Improve in relationship between family & partner's
