Never the same

CNY, would never be the same.

A breaking family. A freaking life to lead.

I would say I have a great life. & I hate my life & myself. 

Even those closes understands me at all. 

I'm opened here. You can say i'm just being crazy, emotional, unreasonable...

& I don give a shit!

Sometimes, I  would be thinking,

 what last words will you guys (people who knows me) tell me if the next min,

I'm GONE

I'm curious? Crazy? seeking attraction? depression?

I don know.

I just know that 

I want my happy family back!

Spending CNY together happily. Sitting around having dinner together.

Hanging out as a FAMILY w no faces. Going studio for a family portrait.

... ...

I want my boyfriend to love me more than i love him.

To only see me in his eyes. To only be nice/gentle to me.

Can you imagine your boyfriend telling you this... ...

I love you mean I love your EVERYTHING.

Your family = my family

Your friends = my friends

Your troubles= my troubles

... ...

I'm Nobody, & I'm Nothing