Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Never the same


CNY, would never be the same.
A breaking family. A freaking life to lead.

I would say I have a great life. & I hate my life & myself. 
Even those closes understands me at all. 
I'm opened here. You can say i'm just being crazy, emotional, unreasonable...
& I don give a shit!

Sometimes, I  would be thinking,
 what last words will you guys (people who knows me) tell me if the next min,

I'm GONE


I'm curious? Crazy? seeking attraction? depression?

I don know.

I just know that 
I want my happy family back!
Spending CNY together happily. Sitting around having dinner together.
Hanging out as a FAMILY w no faces. Going studio for a family portrait.
... ...


I want my boyfriend to love me more than i love him.
To only see me in his eyes. To only be nice/gentle to me.

Can you imagine your boyfriend telling you this... ...

I love you mean I love your EVERYTHING.
Your family = my family
Your friends = my friends
Your troubles= my troubles

... ...

I'm Nobody, & I'm Nothing


Thursday, January 5, 2012

The New Journey Finally Begin

Well!
After celebrating my birthday with all my loves before & after 03 January, finally I have a New ME!
That really sounds great to myself.

02012012, When the clock strikes 12am!!!



They even have this for me ...


&& Luckily there's someone that I could shared with

&& thanks to Shawn, I'm not drunk! Hahahahas.

My lovely friends

03012012, Cinderella
Although it's already half day gone & wasn't the birthday that I'm looking towards to.
Nevertheless, I'm satisfied!!!♥ 
BECAUSE ... ...
I've got a lovely boyfriend with my pressie ♥

Those cards from him ♥

The Roses ♥

 The Watch ♥


I LOVE IT!

 Definitely NOT forgetting...
 my family ♥

& 

lovely family ♥

04012012, The Reborn
Love wasn't working today. So we went Nex Serangoon for a movie.

Sherlock Holmes Premiere ♥

With comfy seats & clean blanket :D

Menu for FOOD

Photo taken!♥

love was happily playing & adjusting his seat

& not forgetting of FOODS!!!


----------------------------------------WISHES 2012------------------------------

This year, I've seriously made 3 wishes

  • My Friends! I seriously hope everything's great with all my lovely friends. I wish them health & wealth. Without them, my life will be seriously bored. I ♥ them much!!!
  • My love! I hope he would be really nice to mix with my lovely friends & not forget his friends too. Friends are really important. Knowing each other friends doesn't mean losing friends, losing freedom or losing privacy. However, knowing them keep us moving & more interacting too ♥ P.S. I did not have any hidden message. 
  • My Family! I hope that everything will turn out nicely. One word ''REUNITED!''

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YES! I admit that previously I did call SOS for help.
I was lost! & I seriously need someone to talk to than to get depress.

 INDEED! They were really cool!
This was from 1 of the 'operation counselor's' when I totally had a break down:

''Be good to yourself.
Treat yourself better.
YOU, YOURSELF as a first priority.
When you're feeling down, go out for a walk or a movie alone.
If not treat yourself an ice-cream.
You'll feel better...''


I DID!!!

It's time for me to let go of some annoying matters.
It's time for me to look for a job.
It's time for me to change for a better person.
It's time... 

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012 is SHIT!

How great to end 2011 like shit & a new start of 2012 like shit too!

I've missed the fun be it with my deary boyfriend or with all my lovely friends & also the beautiful fireworks everywhere last night.

2 more days will be my 22nd birthday. I think it'll be shit too!

Anyway, Let me drop those unhappiness & share some happiness with you previously.

On 23 Dec I went Hard Rock Hotel Sentosa to attend my brother 21st birthday.
It was awesome even though I don know any of his friends except 1 of my primary school girlfriend, my brother's girl & his family. I'll post some photos to do the talking...

 My brother, the birthday boy




Followed by my bestis wedding!!!



With the lovely buddies ♥




On 29 Dec 2011, we did went out for supper too^^