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Woww~~

It's been like goiing to 2 months that ii dint update my blogg:X

am kinda lazy && busy. hahas.

lots of things had happened:D but firstly,

Darling! Happy 22th monthnisary:) ii♥you!

&& it's like more to come:))

Back to August

ii went back to Primary school with my brother:)

At the last week of August,

mummy shop praying for the 7 month festival

&& at the very last day of August,

Darling, Lulu & me we went Marina Barrage for night kite flying:))

ii also went Malaysia again...

Darling cousin's wedding:))

The bride, in the morning, gate crashing:)

Then 30 September 2010, which was yesterday:)

we went celebrating tianyuan's birthday:)

Sakura buffet @ Yio Chu Kang then AMK hub for movie:))

NOTE: photos for tianyuan's birthday, there's more...

Phobia

A short update in between the time while ii'm doing my assignment...

Mum brought me to BoonKeng for me to meet my friend for assignment.

While on our way there,

mum drived passed somewhere

which made me recalled back the incident falls on 1st March this year.

My heart starts beating rapidly that ii can feel it's missed skips somehow.

That ii could hardly breathe and it (heart) sank.

Looking at where ii am, thinking back...

trying to recall hard for what had actually happened that day.

ii hesitated...

I am afraid.

ii wanted to shout out everything that ii could!

Yet ii'm struggling somehow...

ii knew it will definitely worry my mum out if ii mention it again.

&& again,

ii've chose to shut myself, smiling away...

If ii would to choose,

ii would really wants to erase off the incident for now & forever.

The question that ii've been always asking:

"Have ii ever stepped out of that incident??"

ii hope so ...

This is really a phobia for me ...

Lonely National Day

Today was National Day.

It doesn't related to me at all.

Frankly, ii'm forcing myself to sleep in the evening.

So that ii'll missed the celebrations & the fireworks.

However, ii still manage to wake up on time for the fireworks:(

Watching the tv, saw those beautiful fireworks.

Suddenly, ii cried...

This is the 2nd time ME alone at home watching fireworks on tv.

ii remember it was 2 years back.

Friends did called me out.

But ii rejected.

The reason:

They're goiing out to have fun && ii don wish to join them as ended up,

ii might become a spoiler.

ii remember that night, how lonely ii am. crying & crying...

Maybe this might the reason that ii'm so emotion today...

However, boyfriend manage to catch the fireworks due to he's sailing.

ii know it wasn't what he want by leaving me alone here & he could catch the fireworks LIVE.

ii should have been more understanding instead of showing him my attitude.

ii'm really sorry:(

YOU:

ii'm sorry! ii shouldn't have been this way.

ii'm sorry ...

HR & ELMO:P

This is our latest HR presentation:D

&& this is my naughty ELMO:)

You ruin my fuck up day!

You're always the one ii treated importantly.

But why are you always saying things that really upsets me?

aren't you suppose to be the one that makes me the most happy or a cheerful person?

you mentioned that it's just a normal day to you.

Which mean it's not important nor ii mean nothing to you,

Can ii say so??

ii don need to have a very rich surprise.

&& ii believe ii'm not asking too much from you.

" ii always treasure what ii have when ii have it. But, did you??"

Updates:P

Theses for some photos that ii aint update for so long.

Aww~

Above was how Mrs Mel was laughing away crazily while we're working.

Was too bored. hahas.

Dont she looks like she'd crying in a funeral or she's praying.

LOLS. Opps!

ii think she gonna post mine too!

Oh Shit!

Boyfriend's so good.

He went to fetch me after my work.

Kenny Roger for dinner.

Aftermath, movie. Great World:)

&& we too!

Watched Karate Kid soon when it's release.

Hahas. it's so damn nice!

ii would says it's the best movie of the year.

Woo- Hoo~~

This is me, with MOMO:)

she's cute, isnt she?

With that,

Not forgetting , my chocolates:P

There goes my Chilli Placa, Milk tablet chocolate

& the black & milk chocolate w/o sweet.

Most suitable for those who have diabetes or those who eats healthily.

mmm. SHIOK!

Dad's birthday & Papa's day!

My dad's cute, isn't it? Hees.

But 1 thingy, too bad boyfriend wasn't there.

Sigh!

Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

&

HAPPY PAPA'S DAY!!!

P.S. 如果要完成一件事， 总有1000种方法；

但如果不想做，也一定有1000种借口。

Don't worry!

Hi, am back again.

Seriously this time,

ii knew that my health wasn't as good as the past.

&& ii have to really take good care of myself before ii end up in the hospital or it starts again.

Dad was overseas.

Was helping mum's out.

Ended up ii was brought to Tan Tock Seng Hospital on 3 June.

Which was last Thursday night around 11 pm plus.

ii was having check ups, X-ray, blood test && stuff.

&& ii was also under observation till 3 am plus.

That was really sucks at that moment.

lying on the toopiid sick bed making me feel useless & annoyed.

It wasn't the first time there at such hours.

&& ii'm always troubling people around me.

Wasting their precious time there for hours && making them worry:(

Frankly, ii don like!

Now, ii'm trying to take care of myself.

No, should says, " ii have to!"

&& here ii am telling you guys that,

ii'm fine now. no worries.

life continues ...

Hi,

it's been weeks since my last updates.

Recently,

am busy, am lazy, am crazy.

Holidays had started.

Schedule are mostly packed with work.

Exam coming, GSS (Great Singapore Sales) is here.

But ii'm broke:(

Seriously,

June here ...

How fast was it.

It's scary, It's weary.

It's 67 days to our National day.

It's 90 -120 days to my graduation of advance diploma.

It's 181 days to my 2 years anniversary.

It's 185 days to boyfriend's birthday.

It's 212 days to 2011.

&& the new year began again ...

&& there it goes ...

214 days to MY 21st birthday.

Isn't it scary?!

Aww~~~

Seriously, ii ponder.

How my life will be like in future?

My family matters, solve? worst? still the same?

My relationship, better? settled? gone?

I always believe that there's a lot of path in our life.

But which is the best path, & which is the exit or the dead end?

Every path we decide, we have to be responsible for it.

But the problem is always,

"Can you really cope it? Is this really what you want?"

Nevertheless, ii always knew that we can't predict our future.

&& even we couldn't control it from happening.

ii'm always asking myself, what do ii actually want?

Am ii use-ful or am ii use-less?

Is my life been planned since the day ii'm born?

&& for those who concern,

No worry. ii'm still alive ...

ii'm ♥ !!!

Hello!

After days of insecure, uncomfortable feeling/mood,

ii'm okay now.

ii feel loved again:)

ii simply♥ this feeling to the max!

&& ii hope it'll continues ... :D

the time now was 7.06am.

Since 5.45am ii'm back home from boyfriend's cosy little hut.

Hahas. LOLS.

&& ii cant get my ass back to sleep.

So ii on my lovely lappy & starts to read bloggs:D

ii went to my deary MRS MEL's bloggy.

somethings she wrote, ii think she's right.

"Life is full of colours, however, colours is which we decide on.

WE humans are controlling the coulours to our life, our story.

Everything that happened on us be it is small issue or big issue,

is actually depend on how we handle it & how we look into the matter.

If u can take everything lightly of cuz ur colour in ur life is full of RAINBOW colours.

Story Starts was the day we were born.

Story will not end till the day we died..

funny cases was when humans reach the aged of 60 plus,

dey will tend to smile at themselves of the past life experience that dey had went thru..

&& the funny thingy is dey will start to share their story to his/her grandchild.

This is what life actually about...

is a full of surprises, sadness, joyness & Happiness.."

Hahas. She's right! :D

Next, ii've hopped to angel's blogg:D

This was the cute little picture that she've post.

&& there she said

"I'll always love to;

Twirl myself into a worm and gather myself in your warm-loving arms,

with my head on your build-chest,

as it never fails to make me feel like a babygirl,

with a complete free mind from worries cause I know

I'll always be safe and sound with you around."

Well, for me, ii would says

" ii always love you hugging me when we're sleeping.

To lie on your big chest with a so-loved feeling's with completely no burden/worries after a tiring day,

which makes me fall asleep comfortably in your warm-loving arms.

without worrying that ii'll have any nightmare.

As ii know that you're smashed it for me (Hahas. LOLS)

&& you're always there, right beside me♥"

Hahas. this is true!

ii'm not competing. so don say that ii'm comparing OKAY ...

Next, ii hopped again...

all the way to 1 of the popular blog.

Wenqing if you happened to know.

ii love reading her bloggs, ii don know why...

maybe there's lots more of those stuff she's promoting. LOLS.

&& ii happened to see 1 of her recent post,

which ICE CREAM:>

hahas. They do catering as well. Cool right!

Hahas. show you! Show you!!

they have quite a lot of varieties. log in their webby at

http://scoopysandcream.com/home.html

&& take a look...

ii might be ordering it. hahas. Cos, ii'm tempted!!! wahahahas

Next was ii fall in love with Kate Spade big apple darla♥

-The red- :x

ii want! ii want!!!

Aww~

anyway, there's more ...

http://loves-coach.blogspot.com/2010/01/kate-spade-big-bon-apple-tote.html

yawn~

ii wanna get my ass off to bed now.

Have to wake up at 10.15am for lesson.

Nighty Nighty everyones!